No one has directly spoken to me, but whenever a post pops up in my news feed about breastfeeding (I have a FB friend who is very pro-breast feeding) it honestly hurts my feelings. I'm not against breast feeding, not even a little bit. I say do it for as long as you want/can because it really is good for the kiddo. But all too often, breast feeding moms are ridiculously smug about it. And when posts where women brag about how long they fed their little ones pop up on facebook, it hurts me because even though none of these ladies are talking to me, they're inadvertently rubbing it into my face that I couldn't keep it up so somehow I'm not as good at being a mother.
I absolutely know with all my heart that THIS IS NOT TRUE. I'm a great mom. I keep Ginny healthy, and she's progressing perfectly. She's happy and I'm happy. And every other minute of the day when I don't see one of those posts, I am absolutely fine. No thoughts about breast feeding and my 'failure' to keep it up. I didn't fail. My body just couldn't do it, and that's nobody's fault. It happens to so many ladies all over the place. But when I see that breast feeding post, in that moment I feel terrible and I hate it.
What can I do about it? Nothing. Nor do I want to. So instead I come over here and rant about it for a couple minutes and when I am done, I'll finish my glass of water and go snuggle my husband.
